In a perfect world.

We would all have jobs we love and pensions that support us when we are old . Dirty laundry would clean itself and annoying roomates would move out . Sounds like a wish list . I am aware I have alot to be greatful for but it still doesn't stop me from feeling sorry for my situation. The weather is getting cold , I hate the cold and why I live in New England is nobody's guess. I used to love the change of seasons .
Still playing with the idea of moving to San Diego with my very good friends . It would be a drastic change but hey change is good for the soul . I am really not into the changing od the doctors and health coverage , with so many people with HIV fighting to get health care and coverage I am not sure it would be in my best interest to make such changes . But the weather is certainly a great plus !

Dating and having sex .....again

OOhh yes....... it's certainly time to move on and move forward with my true self. I have been so turned off about sex and having it, I convinced myself I was no longer date-able or attracted to anyone for that matter. I have been violated several times which is a turn off. I contracted HIV and Hep-c, another turn off . But with my new found second chance comes choices I need to make for myself. I certainly didn't think I would be celibate for this long or that I wouldn't want to date anymore. I had so much  to think and deal with, first and foremost myself and my health.  I have also been in therapy for the last 6 years which has assisted in my successful decision making skills. So then how do I put myself out there........it shouldn't be so hard . Take off my commitment rings and leave myself single. I have been on a few dates, chemistry is a bear sometimes . But most importantly I am NOT HIV. I have HIV.  I have nothing to be ashamed about and nothing to regret.

Keep a check of your health -  most importantly. Keep up your daily regimen of meds. Eat well and exercise regularly. All of these are important no matter what you are going through , take care of your body and it will do the same .

Just a case of medication rage....

This may be the worst affect I have felt so far . Not really sure how to explain it on a  forum like this . I think I am having a reaction to the Noravir  as I suspected it is running my energy level to zip . I have switched times I take everything and it doesn't seem to matter. As I read in someones blog, I am soaking in Meds!  This too will have to be addressed with my Dr. You figure if your numbers are good. It will be ok .But I have questioned her on this issue . I  don't take anything besides Gabepentin which is a nerve painkiller . I am supposed to take up to 1300 mgs a day . But I take 900 . Another drug that zaps my energy , but it helps the neurological pain I have in my back and legs.

The condom conversation

POZ - Newsfeed : Boys Who Masturbate Are More Likely to Use Condoms, I wasn't sure whether to laugh or take this seriously. It doesn't even make sense that because you masturbate you will wrap it up during sex . To be honest with you condoms are the only things not getting better in time . I think most men agree its sometimes a show stopper . While there are men who continue to not use them because there is no -feeling when you use a condom . Many younger people have written to me saying they swear they use them , And feel comfortable with that .

I have also got comments such as I am a top so I am not at risk . Tisk , Tisk . blood can be transfered from bottom to the top when there is a sore , or scrap. I think the best way to use condoms is to double wrap them , they fit better and you can feel everything much better. Cheers everyone

Storms

We can only do our best and give people a chance. Be kind and respectful :)